I am a 20 year old girl, still learning in life and developing character by learning daily. Learning a lot about myself and reflecting on my actions this past year I have found multiple things I would like to work on, but one in general. My word choice. I guess I have the tendency to cut people down, but sometimes I honestly do not mean to do at all. People just take what I say negatively or poorly. That could be through texting or just the tone of my voice. So, I fully pray that I can change this tongue into only encouraging sayings. I want to having loving words dripping from my lips and not harsh and hurtful sayings that leave my friends or acquaintances bitter towards me.
I guess I have realized this more because this guy I am totally in love with has told me everything I have done wrong in the past month (nicely of course without making me feel too much like a piece of crap..) Many people don't say that to me, but he has.I can be shaped 1000 ways, but I want just one of those, to be the right way. I guess he says it with constructive criticism I usually get teary eyed because I don't want to hurt someone or anyone I love, honestly. I usually suck it up though because I have never been the one to cry until now I guess. My heart has become soft and not such a rock. I can't be weak though and I am sticking by it. Mentally tough.
“No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention.
Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day.
This is all practice.”
— Chuck Palahniuk (Invisible Monsters)
I guess I have realized this more because this guy I am totally in love with has told me everything I have done wrong in the past month (nicely of course without making me feel too much like a piece of crap..) Many people don't say that to me, but he has.I can be shaped 1000 ways, but I want just one of those, to be the right way. I guess he says it with constructive criticism I usually get teary eyed because I don't want to hurt someone or anyone I love, honestly. I usually suck it up though because I have never been the one to cry until now I guess. My heart has become soft and not such a rock. I can't be weak though and I am sticking by it. Mentally tough.
“No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention.
Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day.
This is all practice.”
— Chuck Palahniuk (Invisible Monsters)
- For the first time in my life I guess I have to finally worry about someone else's feelings then my own.
- I have to be careful to what I say.
- Slow to anger.
- Think in the long term and not just the here and now.
- I can't push too hard.
- I gotta let God take control and pray daily for the future.
- I can't get caught up in the moment or your smile.
- I don't need to rush this and just take it slow.
- You just might be the one I have been waiting for my whole life.
For the righteous will never be moved;
he will be remembered forever.
He is not afraid of bad news;
his heart is firm, trusting in the LORD.
His heart is steady;
he will not be afraid,
until he looks in triumph on his adversaries.
Psalm 112:6 - 8
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